annoyance .

I'm really, really, really getting annoyed everyday by your presence. not really annoyed, but it kinda makes me feel very sad that we were once so close and now we are like just friends... I really don't know who to open up all my problems to and most probably, no one will be interested though. I would open up most of my problems to ky but honestly, whenever I'm with her, I just can feel that she's not really herself ... 

I really do find it weird like what's the point of having so many friends when you don't have a very best one? It's the very first time I'm so sad over small little matters this year. Maybe cause of stressful studies? I just want to get out of Singapore. Singapore is too stressful for anyone who is not-so-hardworking like myself. It's too freaking competitive. Where ever you go here, people will still ask how's your studies or whatever that's related to it.

But to be very very honest, people actually will judge you based on what school you attend to. Okay, enough about Singapore geez.

Don't you ever had a boy best friend which you can always depend on and share secrets with? yeah yeah I really should stop thinking about it. but it feels so much like one of your bffs just drifted so far away. I really do regret not treasuring the weird stuffs he does haha. everything's so different now. I don't feel genuinely happy nowadays like seriously.

I keep having this feeling that my friends are all leaving one by one. soon, even ky might leave me one day (which I do trust that she won't haha she's very trust-able).

played with ssp today and I must say, ms loo was so happy :') really proud of ourselves though we lost, everyone put in effort including the ones outside the court! For the first time, everyone of us don't look stressed up while playing :D Most memorable part was when I was breathing so hard, I actually forgot to call for time hahahaha and then suddenly mrs tan, ms loo and xulaoshi called "TOH SHI YEAN" HAHAHAHAHA utterly shocking I swear then I called for time to change position.

Then I think there was two SJAB girls offering me help when all I needed was just to catch a breather hahaha awkwarddddddddd~

although we lost twice, there might be a possibility that we might still get in if we win st. nic's. This is gonna be tough but we can do this! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.

score for today :

SSP - NV 
40 - 13

not so good, but we did our very best and we played happy netball (our goal)

QOTD

"It takes a great man to be a great listener"
-Calvin Coolidge

which reminds me of having a very long h2h talk with lovella ♥

I've recently noticed that whoever goes home with me will eventually get closer to me haha

NETBALL PHOTOZ 

with the beloved b'div' 14

 sleepy jokers haha

awww clasha

watching c'dv's match against SJC

BRAIDS BRAIDS BRAIDS

most horrible part for any netballer .

yes yes, as my title do say that "most horrible part for any netballer" I didn't exactly mean that being a netballer is a bad thing, it's actually the best thing any girl can have hahaha. BUT there are ups and downs like for example, having your season on and then you have to fight with like some of the best schools you can think of in North Zone... well, that happened to my team, sighpie. 

yesterday, we played against Anderson secondary and damn it, we were so damn freaking close to winning at the 4th quarter then... I suddenly felt that I have actually gave up....... It's all my fault even though all my teammates say it isn't BUT BUT BUT, we are gonna play with Singapore Sports School tomorrow ha ha ha ha... what great luck we have and we actually out ourselves into a very hard position to play on to top 4 :( I REALLY WANT A MEDAL .

I shall dedicate this paragraph to shirley, shulin, nicole and yilin :) they made my night and during that moment of time when we're laughing, I felt happy for real that day ha ha ha lame right but ... hahaha idk what I'm saying 

oh yeah and today, I had a super duper bad morning ... I was still dwelling on yesterdays game and I think I didn't had enough sleep due to too much overthinking last night. I had very bad stomachache too and I was so pissed at that this morning that I teared a little hahaha I'm such a crybaby I know. 

got hit on my lower eyelid just now by shaoyang while playing captain's ball with the sec 3s + chloechiaxixuan ... there's actually a bump omg. hahaha i wonder if the R.I.C.E treatment will ever work for my lower eyelid .


well, best of luck for my game against ssp tomorrow... hahaha we shall end this last season with no regrets :') 

update on the score for yesterday's match against Anderson :

AND - NV 
23 - 18 

It's kinda close y'know... But at least we gave them a really tough fight :') 

QOOTD

"It's impossible to love and be wise"

-Francis Bacon

photo photo photo photo photo #throwback

team b' div' 2014  ♥

UPDAAAAAAAAAATE.

Hello! It's been so freaking long since I update this blog... Wow this year sec 4 already sia *STRESS STRESS* yes major papers and everything... and why don't I feel that I'm having exams? sighpie. Any goals? Ermmm maybe get into PFP since it's the best choice :) But it's so damn hard to handle studies and CCAs all together, having matches which will cause me to skip classes. Another thing to worry about, my team . This team is special, I mean like, it's more different than Angelu's batch.It's like as if all the stress and pressure are on you. Cause last year we all depend heavily on Angelu, Stacey, Jolene, etc to win... Now the sec 3s all depends on us.. get what I mean? Honestly I do miss being in the same team as them . Nowadays I find Ms loo different. Like, she is very soft now and she falls sick very easily, which gets me worried. And with us playing not so up to our standard, it makes her more sad and thus she falls even more sick :( 

recent matches we played : 

WDL - NV

5 - 49

RVS - NV

6 - 41

HSS - NV

7 - 31

SBW - NV

2 - 40

CHR - NV

31 - 28 

MRS - NV

7 - 37

and that's the end of round 1 .....

we lost to christ church partly the reason cause I wasn't there... oops. I was sick okay haha. and yunlin's knee was hurting, charmaine's knee was hurting too. so let's just say everyone felt so not on form, not in the optimal arousal :( 

WE COULD HAVE WON, NOW WE IN DIFFICULT SITUATION .

p.s : I suck at editing blogs hahaha